Sunday, November 21, 2004

殖:去與不去

最近,就著龍應台和陳雲的文章,以至港足大敗,與朋友有一些討論。我們的焦點是香港的身份問題。星期六寫了一個關於「殖」與「去殖」的電郵。一邊寫,一邊努力地梳理心中的思緒。

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的確,英國殖民政府有意識地壓抑香港人對中國國民意識及本土意識。然而,這不代表香港缺乏本土意識、身份,也不代表香港需要,甚至可以「去殖」--依我理解,「去殖」似乎是指要抹掉、摒棄、貶斥英國統治時期的一切(雖然我仍然疑惑這是否是龍應台的意思)。

在六十年代起,本土意識在戰後出生的一代間蘊釀。他們在英國管治下的香港出生、成長,視香港為家。「香港人」這身份隨之出現,香港本土文化:電影、音樂等也興起,由香港人寫的香港史亦開始出現,甚至香港的國際地位也是這時開始冒起。

因此,香港的獨特身份、文化,是英國統治之下蘊釀出來的。嚴格來說,香港在英國人來之前,是沒有歷史和文化。起碼,英國人來之前,根本沒有「香港」這地方。

殖,是香港的起源。無論殖有多壞,它必然對香港的身份有重大的文化意義。因此,殖是香港身份的必然部份。那麼,我們需要,甚至可以,去殖麼?

現在,特區政府和中央便很努力地去殖。他們要香港人忘記殖民歷史,為洗掉殖民歷史恥辱而高興(對我來說,六四可能是更大的國恥),他們要香港以祖國為本。香港是中國的一部份。然而,其結果將是:香港將失掉本土意識,沒有自我。這也是現時統治者想要的,因為他們要香港臣服於政治現實,乖乖服從。

可是,香港就是不能完全融入祖國。雖然現在本土意識在新一代似乎越來越模糊了,眼見香港快要投入祖國懷抱了,但在另一邊廂的中國能真正容得下香港麼?香港,總是被「另眼相看」。結果,香港進退失據,兩邊落空。這就是我現在的感覺。

因此,「去殖」可能比「殖」更危險。

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寫畢電郵後,腦裡閃出一句話:「親娘不及養娘大」。(好不要臉!)

朋友告訴我:上海的導演很討厭香港人!(似乎是非常正常的一回事……)

朋友又說:一國兩制行不通的,港獨吧!(知其不可而為之……)

後來,我得閱一些比我年紀小、正就讀大學的同學對陳雲文章的一些感想。閱讀的時候,覺得有趣,同時忍不住暗嘆:「原來他們是這樣想的!」因為他們對文章、對香港的閱讀角度,跟我的很不同。他們的文字給我很深的印象是:香港在他們心目中,似乎是白紙一張,沒有歷史、文化、價值和身份。

我和他們有很不同的閱讀和觀點,背後又反映了什麼呢?

之後,朋友又提出了:所謂「殖」,是什麼意思呢?香港人又有多自覺殖的存在及其隱藏的問題?最後歸結到羅永生所提出的「奴性意識」:最成功的統治,或許是能夠令人不知不覺地做了奴才。

身處於永遠是殖民地的香港,香港人的身份實在太複雜,恐怕想昏了也想不清,因此暫且不說了。

8 Comments:

At 11/22/2004 11:38 am, Blogger aahsun said...

having deep feelings reading your writing... i was born in 1969. edge of the progressive 60's and the well-off 70's. i experiened the entired colonial days how hk becomes a "rich" and "free" city... actually, i was thinking of these things too these days and wrote something for a cd which will release in late nov...
i also shared your feelings about reading adn talking to younger generation people... once i had a student and she did a reseach on hk history museum, and we discussed a lot her ways of knowing hk history and "identity" she is 21, i am 34... then i realize how much differences we have....

i have made a link from my blog to yours. want to share your writings with more people.

thank you.

are u a student in hkcu?
i am now studying in the states for my terminal degree... so far away from, but really good to haev blogs and internet... i can read mindpao everyday. :-)

take care,
anson

 
At 11/22/2004 11:41 am, Blogger aahsun said...

sorry, forgot to let you know my web site.
http://www.aahsun.com
cos i made a link to you, i think i have to let you know...

best,
anson

 
At 11/22/2004 12:23 pm, Blogger 日不落 said...

Anson,

Many many many thanks - Thanks for your visit, thanks for your linkage, thanks for your appreication.

Guess how I felt when I read this: 'i realize there are so many new blogs lately... this is really a good thing...'? I have to borrow my friend's word to tell you the answer, which I can never translate it into English: 「看時眼角有星形淚光在流動」……

In fact, I know who you are (我識你,你唔識我個隻). I do visit your site and own your book.

Yes, I am a CUHK alumna. I have deep feeling when reading current students' words on Hong Kong. I am surprised for the great difference between me and them, and sometimes I think, I can never understand them ...

 
At 11/22/2004 1:40 pm, Blogger aahsun said...

you are welcome. you writings are very nice. :-)
sun

 
At 11/22/2004 4:06 pm, Blogger 日不落 said...

Anson,
Moved. Thanks, once again...

 
At 8/21/2005 5:53 pm, Anonymous Frostig said...

TOTALLY Agree! The course materials in HK now intentionally erase the memories, the identities, the hitory of HK. The students, the pupils, the children know nothing now, only lies. In this way, HK is very 'Chinese' already (brain washing is working well).

For me, I 101% agree that 親娘不及養娘大, and I kind of feel that Communist China 才是殖民者. And, for your information, 上海人 really很討厭香港人, just out of jealousy, after my long-ter observation. Anyway, 上海人 are not nice in general, too proud and self-centred. Here, by saying 上海人, I am not refering to the race, the 'blood', but the place where one grows up and lives. The local cultures always affect a person more than the blood.

 
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